Barefoot and Crazy

Holy crap on a cracker, I haven’t ranted and raved on this thing in awhile! I have to say, this has been the best summer that I can remember in years.  I guess that’s why I haven’t updated in so long, I’ve been having too much fun.  I had a great week long vacation, I still have the greatest full time summer job in the world, & I can now add to the list a wonderful boyfriend! I’ve gotten to spend a lot of time with my brothers too, and I’m glad that we now have things that we can enjoy together on a regular basis.

This has been a changing summer in many ways.  My life is headed in a different direction, and I’m ok with it.  I don’t dread it anymore.  This wasn’t the plan I had in mind but apparently it was God’s, and all I can do now is pray that everything works out for the best.  I’m an adult now and I have responsibilities & bills to pay and it’s scary, but who isn’t when they start out on their own.

I feel so blessed right now.  God really works in mysterious ways I have come to find out.  I spent an entire year hoping and praying that a certain person would come back to me.  I had finally gotten to a point at the end of the school year where I was ok if he didn’t come back, it didn’t hurt as much anymore and I felt like I might be able to move on.  I was hoping that I would meet someone special, someone who shared similar interests with me, (this sounds silly, but) someone who lived near me, who wanted to see me and be with me, someone who didn’t judge me for the things that I enjoyed, a guy who really did wanted me just the way I am, warts and all.  I pretty much knew that I would never find him, that romantic southern gentleman type.  I told myself not to get my hopes up anymore that the pefect guy was out there, I guess I just assumed I would have to settle for something less than pefection.  But when I least expected it, there he was, everything I was looking for & I’m NOT letting him slip away. I have the greatest boyfriend in the world, argue with me if you want, but you’ll be wrong.  I am so lucky to have someone in my life who is so understanding, especially through some unpleasant times, he puts up with more than he should. I love him to death!

BAZINGA! Happy weekend little monsters!

Today’s Tunes:

Me & You by Kenny Chesney

One Of You Turds Is About To Get Smacked In The Mouth!

I always hate moving out.  I hate when the school year ends.  Not because I super love school work, but because leaving Boone means leaving a place where I truly belong.  This year has kind of been an odd ball one in general though, and I feel extra not ready to leave because, most of the people I know at ASU are graduating and I’m still not.  Even some of my AppolCorps Freshmen are graduating before me.  A part of me feels like an epic and utter failure for still being in school.  Although, I’ve thought about it, and maybe I haven’t graduated because I don’t want to leave.  Maybe I’m scared of the real world. Maybe I don’t want to grow up.  Maybe I like being a college kid.  (Granted I hate that I’m super in debt…) A part of me is very glad I didn’t graduate this semester.  I would have graduated today, Mother’s Day, and it would have been just another reminder that my mom wasn’t there.  I know that had I graduated today with the College of Arts & Sciences at 4pm, I would have chosen NOT to walk, and I would have forever been upset about the day that my graduation fell on.

All of that aside… I HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE READY FOR A SUMMER!  I need a break.  I need some fun.  I need some family time.  I’m physically and mentally exhausted.  I have pretty much been asleep since I got home on Thursday night.  I’ve also been sick, but I’m glad to be home in doughnut city & I’m glad  that school is over and done with for now.  I think this summer is going to be one where I take it fairly easy & have as much fun as possible!  I think A. Wiles & I have it pretty much planned out!  I’m pretty sure we’re gonna become regulars on Friday nights, and of course it doesn’t get much better than Bowman Gray on a Saturday night!

BAZINGA! Good morning little monsters!

Today’s Tunes:

Six Pack Summer by Phil Vassar

Are We There Yet?

I’ve found myself thinking several times this past week, ARE WE THERE YET? Is it summer time yet? (It doesn’t feel like it, it has been too cold lately.) Is it the end of the year yet? (Not quite… just the hard part is left.) Is it the weekend yet? (This past weekend was wonderful & I’m already ready for the next!) Driving home & back this weekend, I kept thinking how nice it would be if I could just skip the whole driving part.

I’m still coughing up a lung after spending pretty much all of last week in the bed with some terrible virus.  I’m thankful to the ASU infirmary though, without their cough meds I’m pretty sure my voice would be non-existent, but instead I just sound like a man.  Staying in bed for a week did get me caught up on my TV watching though.  I’ve watched alot of Hoarders lately… OMG people have a ton of crap… I mean I know that I’m not perfect and I keep a lot of shit that I don’t really need, but GOOD LORD! Makes me want to throw everything away cuz I’m afraid of ever being that way. HAHA.

Let me talk about my weekend for a minute… get ready to be super jealous! So Friday afternoon, after taking my Biology Lab final, I headed home with the lovely Kat Gardzalla.  I got to Doughnut City around 4 and then took a much needed nap.  After the nap I got dressed and ready and headed out to Johnny & June’s with the amazing Ashley Wiles!  We were super excited for the David Nail concert and got really lucky that we got to meet him, take pictures with him, and then stand right next to the stage… an evening of epic proportions to say the least.  The next day was opening night at Bowman Gray Stadium but sadly it was rained out and A. Wiles’ first hometown race experience had to be postponed.  All in all it was a good relaxing weekend at home though.

Now just to finish the few projects, papers and exams that I have left…. I’m honestly ready to go home and work for the summer.  I need the $$.

BAZINGA! Good night Little Monsters!

Today’s Tunes: (I’m gonna give you two… because they fit my life right now… and they’re by an AMAZING artist!)

I’m About To Come Alive by David Nail

This Time Around by David Nail

…there’s also another one of his songs hidden in this post… I recommend listening to all of his stuff!!!

The Southern Belle Effect

I’ve watched Gone With The Wind twice in 4 days. (Which is a lot considering the fact that the movie itself is 4 hours long.)  Why you might ask… because it’s the end of the year, which means writing papers and doing projects.  That still doesn’t really explain things though. Gone With The Wind was my mother’s favorite movie. My mother even prayed when I was born that I would look like freaking Scarlett O’Hara. (It’s too bad for me she got her which… sorry Mom but that kind of hair may have been popular in 1865, it isn’t in 2010.) I’ve seen it so many times, and this is why I choose it around the end of the year. It doesn’t distract me at all because I know it almost by heart. I don’t even have to look at the screen to know what’s going on.

I’ve been thinking about my dating life lately. The non-existent dating life that it is. Honesty I’m happy where I am right now though. Apparently I’m supposed to always want someone to hold the door for me or help me fix my car or something that’s broken. I don’t though. I’m perfectly capable and content doing all of those things myself. I’m very independent and I don’t want anyone to change that. I guess I’m expected to want a relationship “at this stage in my life”.  According to my grandmother something must be wrong with me that I haven’t already found someone else because soon, “all the good marriage material will be taken”.  LOL I can honestly say though that I’m 99% sure there isn’t a person in Boone that I would want to be with.  There are multiple reasons for this: 1) I’m old.  Older than “normal” college students.  2) I’m graduating in December.  3) I won’t be staying in Boone after graduation.  4) I refuse to ever do a long distance relationship again, therefore anything that started now would end come summertime, or after graduation.  Go ahead and call me a bitter bitch, you’re probably right, but I have a right to be.  Now I say this but if that PERFECT person is out there I will gladly eat my words, but as of right now I haven’t met him.

I think I learned a valuable lesson today.  Stop doing things for other people.  They’re just using you. I guess I’ve learned this the hard way. When you’re left out of everything except doing favors for people, it gets old pretty quick.  There’s also usually not a thank you either, it’s just expected, because that’s what I do.  To the best of my ability, I’m cutting out of my life the people that use me.  Therefore, if you don’t hear from me in the next week or so, and you normally would, here’s your wake up call… YOU’RE USING ME!

I tend to be a worrier, but no more… I think I have a new motto: “I can’t think about that right now. If I do, I’ll go crazy. I’ll think about that tomorrow. After all… tomorrow is another day.”

BAZINGA! Good night little monsters!

Today’s Tunes:

So Not My Baby by Josh Turner

It’s 3 am I must be lonely…

I don’t really have anything to write about, but it’s 3 am and I am lonely (yes I quoted Matchbox 20) and fairly sleepy, but insomnia has its terrible hold on me once again. I figured that writing here would have less of a negative impact on people than if I actually posted something ridiculous like a note on Facebook, which everyone would judge me for in the morning.  This way, I think I’m keeping myself from some ridicule considering that only a hand full of people read my crazy rants & ramblings.  This seems somewhat sad to me though.  I have over 1,000 friends on the Facebook and yet only a hand full care to go any deeper than the superficial relationship that we have of being “Facebook friends”.  Now, I’m not the type of person who de-friends anyone.  I feel like once you are friends with someone you shouldn’t get rid of them just because you haven’t talked to them in awhile, so if they wish to no longer have my friendship then they will have to be the one to give me the boot. But I digress… I did just notice that here in doughnut city (winston…in case you hadn’t read my previous posts) the weather guessers have said that it  will be 91 degrees on Tuesday… suitable weather for melting things or frying eggs on the sidewalk. It’s hard for me to imagine that just a couple weeks ago it was snowing in Boone, how quickly things change.  Spring lasted what, all of a week?

In other random news…I really want a cupcake right now!

Bazinga! Good night little monsters!

Today’s Tunes:

3AM by Matchbox 20

I Just Forgot by Mercer Mayer

Did you read that book as a kid? I remember reading all of those stories when I was little.  Well, in case you haven’t read the story here’s the short version.. Little Critter forgets to do what is important to his mother, but he doesn’t forget to do those things that are important to him.

Well, apparently “I Just Forgot” to update this blog.  I got back from Spring Break and I guess I failed to remember that I had started this thing. So here goes a rather large update on my mildly interesting life.

Spring Break in Florida was absolutely amazing!  I went to Disney World for the first time, which now I agree that it’s an experience everyone should have.  I’m actually glad I went as an adult and not a kid.  I don’t think I could have waited in line patiently at that age.  It was great to get away from all the snow that had been in Boone.  70 degree weather was an AMAZING difference.  The 10 hour drive there and back was not as bad as I had expected!  Although now that I’m back I find myself dreaming of the beach and sunshine even though the weather in Boone has been wonderful the last few days, I’m sure the weather down in Florida is epic.

School is wrapping up which is hard to believe.  In case you haven’t realized, it’s already Easter! I need to get my ass in gear!!! I have all kinds of crap to do before the end of the semester…a couple projects…a handful of papers…and a crap ton of tests.  After that I’m home free for awhile, I know that next semester being my last will probably completely kick my ass but in the end it will be totally worth it when I hold that diploma in my hand that says I did what I wanted and now I get to go flounder around in the world trying to find something to do. Hahaha.

So Easter break, should be a time for everyone to relax and get ready for what’s left of school.  Apparently for me its a time to get screamed at relentlessly.  Its my dad’s favorite hobby.  I’ve been home for about 20 hours and I have managed to apparently not do anything right.  I took a nap… and got screamed at.  I let my brother on the computer…I got yelled at.  My computer is hot… I got a lecture and got yelled at, and apparently if I leave my computer anywhere, even though I purchased it myself, my Dad is going to “take it”.  I also got screamed at for having hit a pothole (which broke my hubcap) that I wasn’t able to see because it was pouring down rain.  Then I got yelled at for driving in the rain.  Then I got yelled at for driving at night.  Then I got told to leave the house…  Then the tags got taken off of my car… So I’m not exactly sure what the hell I’m supposed to do, I can’t leave cuz I have no car but yet I’m supposed to leave.  I guess it doesn’t matter cuz either way I don’t have enough money to fill up my tank again.  Did I mention I got screamed at because I’m broke… yea, that too.

I guess for now I’ll just dream of being somewhere else, anywhere but here…

BAZINGA! Good afternoon little monsters!

Today’s Tunes:

Toes by Zac Brown Band

Lemme Talk For Half A Minute, Then I’ll Let You Go…

Alight, so spring break is here & It’s about to be the best one ever!  I got my banana pudding doughnut, and it was everything I had hoped for and more.  It was an orgasm of the mouth! Totally amazing! In fact I’m going back this morning to get another one before I leave…goodbye diet!  I guess I can forget wearing some of those new clothes but hell it’s totally worth it! (Seriously if you are able to get one of those doughnuts…get two!)

I have the best friends ever! Thanks to them I am going to have a kick ass spring break, & I finally have a phone that works! I’m so lucky to have the people that I have in my life!  This whole school year has been phenomenal.  I don’t think that I’ve ever had a year where I have had more fun or laughed as hard, and I have my amazing friends to thank for that.

I watched the ASU basketball game last night…I’m glad our team is doing so well!  I really hope we are able to win this tournament and go on to the NCAA tournament, that would be AMAZING!

Well it’s now 6:50 and I am scheduled to leave doughnut city at 7:30…Vern & I are finally off on our big adventure.  Next time I post I’ll be in Florida!

BAZINGA! Good morning little monsters!

Today’s Tunes:

Leaving Town by Dexter Freebish